I'm still "hangin' in" with performances as a member of a jazz group. Performing has always caused extreme anxiety--the fear of being judged as not good, not good enough, all of it. It stems from early conditioning to be "perfect." These days I go for the learning, the beauty of the music, even though I'm still plagued by unreasonable fear. When our group plays together, I love it! It's worth all the fraught stuff in my head. Vanquishing the dragons.
I'm still "hangin' in" with performances as a member of a jazz group. Performing has always caused extreme anxiety--the fear of being judged as not good, not good enough, all of it. It stems from early conditioning to be "perfect." These days I go for the learning, the beauty of the music, even though I'm still plagued by unreasonable fear. When our group plays together, I love it! It's worth all the fraught stuff in my head. Vanquishing the dragons.
@Judy- I love it. Yep, vanquishing the dragons. That's what happens when we push a little past the comfort zone.